The Johns Hopkins Hospital Oct. 12, 1920.
Lady dear,
Your letter & enclosure are here. The latter is with Dr. Meyer, to with Freudian criticism is gratifying.
I'm mighty glad you are not suffering much with the brace & corset, & that the work goes so well. God help that elementary student if she looks & acts like me.
Yes, I'm here. I get in by not thinking of what I'm supposed to do, else I'd be panic struck. - - - Excuse me - the Chief wishes me to see the daughter of McCullen of [...] School who has peculiar mouth movements.
The visiting & house staffs are harmonious. My biweekly clients are just staring. Thank God the nursing problem is being amicably settled. I've run back & forth between the two camps. Each insisted that I do the talkng. I got out of the senior n-lectures except for 2 clinics on children. But I have to give 3-5 lectures to probations on psychology of the normal. The Chief insisted nobody should give it but me. Really the opinions he has of my powers is appalling. I honestly mean it. At times I have to pinch myself to see if I am really alive. Next trimester I begin weekly election clinics for the medical students - elective course. Third trimester he told Dr. Howell I would give a course on Social Hygiene for the School of Hygiene grad. students. First I knew of it yesterday. The hour comes when I shall fall from the good opinion. I know it. You know that my judgment is not what he thinks it is. Why I haven't been out of School but 5 years.
The consultations are not too bad just yet. 6 cases last week. Please with me. I feel low in my mind at times.
The Disp. goes on. I give opinions on & settle fates of all sorts & conditions of men. If I ever hesitated I'd be lost. It's like walking a tightrope. If you look down you're a dead one.
Yes, D. Bruce got into Wellesley. Miss Pendleton finally gone in, & put it over. She writes (D.B I mean) that Julia & Dr. Raymond cannot do enough for her. Ha! ha!
Much love
EstherLloyd George has Mange! Am boarding him in a great home.